Confessions from my Moment in the Sun

I am sitting, momentarily, in the sun. In my pajamas. After lunch. Drowning in the light. My eyes, overly sensitive to the glow of the sunlight, are squinted and watery, masking my joy of basking.

I just forked over some cash for a ticket to a live concert in my own backyard. A home production by three peanut-butter faced boys, two still in pajamas, with their initial microphones (disguised as Scooby Doo Mystery Popsicles) quickly dripping and streaking orange down their arms.While the heat and humidity simply make the exchange of breath difficult, smothering almost, the pleasure of the treasured sunlight supercedes this current southern discomfort. Mud abounds. Wherever the beauty of lush greenery subsides, mud ensues, making play disastrous and endlessly messy. But the sun is shining. It's glow warms my soul as my body begins to accommodate with perspiration.

And then it is over. It begins slowly and effortlessly with a mere drip here and a drop there. And before I am ready to give up my place in the sun, it is raining. It... Is... Raining... Again. I know that we need rain to water the earth, renew our water supply, sustain life on this planet, etc. - I have fed all these answers and more excuses to the kids over the last few weeks with feigned upbeat optimism and thankfulness. Truth is - I'm now wondering why, again, is it raining? I am, I believe, suffering from Seasonal Affective Disorder. I am losing my mind.

The accumulation of total home untidiness, boyhood boredom, days and days of rain, and an absent husband have done me in - taken me over. So instead of accomplishing indoor tasks of a simple nature or those of more monumental proportion, I spend my days building indoor caves and watching the laundry pile to the sky...Venturing outdoors at any semblance of the sun, hoping somehow that it will last, will spill over into my insides and end the blah....


(In all seriousness, the rain has been more than irritating to some folks just to our northwest - including my parents - with torrential rainfalls of 17 inches last night alone and resulting in the loss of property for many (no loss of life yet reported). I in no way want to minimize their disaster with my own grumblings...)